Hi Ehren,
Yesterday was part two of your dad’s lab work. I know our fertility journey is a lot of “hurry up and wait”, so we’re getting ready to wait for a week for the results. After this, they’re starting me on some medication that regulates my ovulation and hoping that it will yield enough good results for us to have you!
This weekend, your dad & I were getting our haircuts in town and there were some other kids waiting on their parents to finish up with their hair cuts, so we made friends with them. There was a 3-year old boy who played like we had a store, and he was selling me the straightening irons they had on display. I’d “pay” him in his leftover lollipop wrappers and then pretend to come back for a part or something. When he had to go, a 3-year old girl named Kara came up and told me her name and age and smiled! She grabbed a wedding hairstyle book and we sat down and “read” it together where I’d make up princess stories about the ladies in all of their pretty dresses. Later, we saw Kara & her family at Target and she recognized me and said hi. We compared haircuts and then went our separate ways.
I think about how happy those families are and I smile when I think of you.
Tonight, your dad & I are having our “babydate”! We’re going to sit down and make a plan about how much time, money, & effort we want to put into our fertility journey. I am going to make my great taco bake casserole over at your Oma & Opa’s (they’re out of town on a lovely Canadian cruise!) and we’re going to make a final plan on all of our options and what we’re willing to do (IUI is still up in the air?) and what we are not willing to do (IVF is out for us, definitely). Hopefully, this will make the little setbacks and disappointments along the way much easier to bear!
Since my craft shop is based on baby things, it can be a real joy (or very frightening!) trip to buy supplies like onesies and yarn for little blankets. Tom & I lingered hand in hand at Target’s baby section feeling elated and sad all at once. Ehren, he’s going to make a great dad. I hope that I will be a good mom.
<3, Eden
